Meet Death
Darkness. Pure darkness.
Where was I?
I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t move, I couldn’t open my eyes, I couldn’t hear.
Where was I?
Strangely, I could think. As the reality gradually transcended into my soul, I gulped, trying to force down the bitter globule of truth that I just discovered.
I was alone. Alone in this moist barricade like a protective cage to a lonely parrot. Ironically, I hated my ‘cage’. I wanted to escape into the realms of the beautiful world I was previously in. The glorious sunshine, the dews on the leaves forming under the spectacular canopy, the snow-capped mountains, everything and everyone else. I was deprived.
Then, a terrfying tremor jolted my lifeless body like a paper-thin body on a rollercoaster ride. I summoned all my strength and committed unperturbed concentration to open my eyelids forcibly but to no avail. I couldn’t comprehend the events that ensued simultaneously like a programmed domino effect.
During the puzzling chain of events, by God’s grace, I could listen again. I regretted the moment I was thankful to the divine intervention for the unexpected gift to hear once again. Initially, it was like a slow rumble and then it grew in ‘velocity’ and the exponential rise in the decibel scale took me off guard.
“Ahoy wretched soul! I bid you a warm welcome to the dungeon of mine…. Home to the unworthy and unthankful rats like you.” The booming voice startled me and the silence that ensued seemed almost devilish.
“Unworthy? Unthankful? What had I done?” My mind fought back nonchalantly.
“There’s the defiance! A typical act of unconscious self - defence verbal mechanism. Fret not, I get that a lot. In any case, I have been commanded by my majesty, the King of Appreciation to confine you indefinitely for your ungrateful thoughts and selfish deeds during your time in the Eden of wealth, fortune, knowledge and love; The Earth. Any last wishes?” The words shoved my brain in a downward spiral embedded deep into a vacant and dreary abandoned land.
“I want to get out of this shit hole! Now! Please! Please! Please don’t leave me.” My mind unleashed its devastating blood-curdling cry that caused my lungs to burn. My first sensation on my body, though it lasted a few seconds.
“You have had your chance on Earth to experience life but all you ever do was to whine like a bed - ridden whore!” With that, the Voice disappeared and a cloud of silence looms above. It’s a deafening silence.
My life felt different on myself. For once I greeted death and understood my heart’s position. I wore my life like a garment from the mission bundle sale ever so lightly because I realized I did not pay anything for it, cherishing it because I know I would not come by such a bargain again.
The indifference served as a painful reminder to never take things for granted for the sword outwears it’s sheath and the soul wears out the breast and gradually, the heart must pause to breathe and love itself has to rest.
Instantaneously, my mind was swarmed with regrets and ‘what if-s’ and ‘what not-s’. It’s too late now. I’m done. I’m done for good. I terminated my mind and indulge into a deep and undefined slumber.